My Biggest Hindrance to Drawing
The question that I often ask myself is “What took me so long just to draw?”
Oh, such a big and loaded question. I have always loved art. I loved to create things. BUT, there was an issue I had that I wouldn’t grow in this skill and passion. Well, I guess to start with is that I didn’t believe there was a growth pattern to any talents either until I began studying talented people. There’s always a growth process. During my Taylor Swift phase (yes, I admit that I was that swiftie years ago lol), she even had to learn to play the guitar as well. Not just her, either, but everyone. None of us come out of our mothers’ wombs being masters at a skill or hobby at day 1. There’s a growing process with everything. Grill masters had to learn and were beginners before (this amazes me the most lol). I’m not sure why or how I got sucked into the lie that our talents are just instantaneous and masters right away. I had to grow into it! Imagine that! 🙂
My biggest issue that I’ve had though over the years was actually FEAR. My entire life I was afraid of everything, probably due to an experience that I had to go through when I was 2 years old, so then fear just stuck around for years. Fear kept me trying new things. Fear kept me from succeeding whether in school and in the workplace. Fear kept me from meeting new people. Fear kept me from trying again after making one or two mistakes (yes, I was that perfectionist, too). Fear kept be bound for way too long, including my own artful passions. My belief in myself was too little so fear overpowered it, unfortunately.
Over these years, I have learned not to live by fear. It’s WAYYY too exhausting letting fear win. That’s one reason why I’m still choosing to document my entire artist journey here. I don’t care anymore that my current pieces still look very elementary. 10 years ago me would have been horrified, but now I just want to detail everything. I choose to lay it all out no matter what it currently looks like today. I am improving more every day and I hope you would enjoy the process 🙂